I sat in front of my computer on that last day. I was there for hours. When I finished at 11:45 p.m. I looked over at my husband and said, "It is finished." The feeling that I had was hard to explain. I was so exhausted by that point that there was no desire to celebrate or even cry. All I could muster was a sigh of relief. There was a lot to document and a lot that I feared I may forget to mention. In the end it was truly complete. I was ending something that was virtually the entirety of my life and was approaching an abyss that I knew nothing about.
In less than a month I'd tendered my resignation, put our house on the market, accepted an offer, moved out-of-town and was actively job hunting. It really has been a crazy few months. In December I'd had a hysterectomy. I thought that it would be the only thing that I would have to be truly concerned about. But life, as usual, had other plans. I've tried to remain as optimistic as possible. There's no need to be angry with life for doing what it does best, change.
It has been challenging. It's also been cathartic and enlightening. As of today both my husband and I are unemployed and will soon have no money at all. Is it stressful? Yes. Would I change the path that I took to get here? Maybe. But I am at peace and am happy about this next chapter in our lives. As I get older I continue to evolve in ways that I never imagined possible. I am grateful for the life that I have. I am appreciative of the experiences that I've lived and most importantly, I am humbled by my willingness to make a change even in the face of adversity. Sometimes we have to do something drastic and uncomfortable in order to continue in the path that we're meant to live.
LaToya M. Davidson can be contacted at firstname.lastname@example.org or follow her on Twitter, @LaToyaonUR.